Lots and lots to say

So many things things have happened since Nov 2011. First off we lost our foster son who we had for 3 1/2 years. Not to mention we got him from birth. This was the most difficult time of my life. It was so painful. We lost him to a non-relative grandmother (that would be a whole different post). That was Nov 4, 2011.
     So after we endured such a terrible loss we became pregnant with twins. I was so super excited. For some reason I have always wanted twins. Everything was going along very smoothly around 5 weeks. I began to bleed heavily which prompted an emergency visit to my doctor. I had a blood clot in my uterus that was situated between both babies. At this visit although there was the blood clot both babies looked fine and both heartbeats were detected. I was sent home on bed rest just to be safe. I continued to bleed which made me very nervous. So at my next ultrasound which would have been 1 week later we were delivered some bad news. We had lost one of the babies but the other twin looked very healthy. I was heartbroken and grateful at the same time. So we moved forward and had another ultrasound at 8 weeks and we were expecting good news but we were again delivered bad news and we lost the second baby. I was devastated to say the least.  So the doctors and I decided to let the babies pass naturally. So it was about 10 days later (we are in March at this point) that I began my miscarriage. It was around 1:15 a.m. when I passed the first baby.
      That evening around 7:30 our dog Bailee began to get very sick. I mentioned in my previous post what happened to her. During her surgery they found a mass on her spleen. They sent it off for testing. Unfortunately the test came back with devastating news. She has a very agreesive form of cancer that attacks organs. They said it wouls attack her heart as well and she only has about 3 months max to live. I couldn't believe it. I was devastated and I didn't want to believe. Iwas hoping she would live longer than 3 months. The vet said she would be fine one day and the next she would not eat, she would sleep alot. That day came and I was so scared. It was a Friday and she was so ill she could barely walk and she was leaning against the wall for balance. Sat came and she seemed to have more energy so i was hopeful she was fine and maybe she was just not feeling well. However deep down I knew this was it, I knew this is what the vet was talking about. Then came Sun. she didn't eat anything and she only went outside once for the bathroom. she could only take a few steps and she either fell against a wall or she laid down. It was around 5:00 we called the emergency vet (which happened to be our vet) and he said it didn't sound good at all. Her gums were snow white and the vet said she has is losing oxygen. The blood vessels in her eyes were gone. Around 6:00 on May 7 we said goodbye to our baby girl. She was my baby. My sweet sweet girl was gone. Cancer had spread like wildfire throughout her organs.
     Tomorrow I will have a more upbeat post. The Lord is awesome and he has turned our morning upside down.